Ever since I became obsessed with dogs all I've had is my closest family telling me how I shouldnt be obsessed with dogs, how I should be doing what 'normal' teenagers do. The only person that's ever believed in me and my dogs is my nan. My parents let me do whatever I like with Ernie, but as Indi has long-fur they go ballistic if I get him muddy. Its ridiculous. My parents want me to go to university and become something that earns lots of money, but if I did that, that would be for them, not me. I dont want to be that, I want to work with dogs as thats the only thing that I have ever been actually good at and its the first thing I've ever done where I've been the winner. The problem is I've never had anyone there, except my nan, who has ever been proud. I am so greatful to my nan, she is the only one that has ever understood my passion for dog training and my passion for giving dogs the best life they can have. When Ernie competed in his first flyball competition my nan was over the moon for me, along with the flyball team as well. They were all proud of me and what I had achieved with my nervous little JRT. When I told my parents they honestly didnt care.
Now I hate reading things like this where all they want is sympathy. I dont want sympathy. I have learnt an important lesson from this. Never let anyone take anything away from you. Would someone say to someone else to stop playing football just because they didnt like it? And even if they did would you listen to them? Same with any sport and the same with this. Why should anyone have the right to tell you what you can and cant do with your life? Now I love my parents, but sometimes I just wish they would understand me more and think about my dreams instead of there own dreams. Yes my parents love dogs, well my mum does, but she only wants them for a family pet.
So what is the point of this post? Its not to moan about my life, and tell you how bad my life is. Far from it. I actually have a really good life. But I have learnt something today. No matter what, I will never let anyone tell me what I can and cant do with my life just because they dont think its 'normal'. I will keep fighting for walking Indi in the mud, and fighting for what I believe in. If I dont decide to go to university it will be because my dream is to train dogs and not end up doing a job I wont enjoy. Life isnt about money, life is about enjoying everything the world has to offer. Why waste it? Thats why I love walking in nature so much, because its just me, my dogs and no one else. I am weird. But I like it that way. And no one should ever take that away from me.
This all probably sounds very wish washy and like something you hear on tv, but I have to write about this. Some peoples lives revolve around horses, is that wrong? Some peoples lives revolve around a particular sport like football or rugby, is that wrong? And some peoples lives revolve around dogs, is that wrong? Of course not. If your doing what you love, then why should it be wrong?
Everyone is different and if one person has one dream, it is almost definate that its going to be different to yours. So never, ever no matter what, let anyone take that away from you, as mad and insane as it may seem. My dream probably seems insane to my family, and sometimes I doubt it myself. But my biggest dream is for people to see me for what I CAN do and not for what I cant do. Dancing used to be that. Then I found something even better, my dogs. Training dogs is the one thing in my life I can do, and dogs are the one thing in my life that I love. I never do anything with my dogs for results, I just want to show people how amazing my dogs are and have a blast with my dogs at the same time.
I know this all sounds very pathetic, but I needed to post this somewhere so that I keep believing it and following MY dreams instead of other peoples. Sometimes fighting for what I believe in is so hard, but I am going to keep on fighting. Because no one ever said that you shouldnt play football or rugby. Just because my dreams are a bit 'different' to most peoples doesnt mean they shouldnt happen. If they didnt, no one would ever get anywhere.
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